My Story: How My Life Changed

Does My Sin Keep Me From God?

I used to think God hated me.

Anthony Pelloni with Rich Atkinson

In my life, I’ve had my share of sins. I used to cut myself and think that I was not good enough to live. I used to think God hated me. Why would God allow certain things in my life if He really loved me?

I obviously had a lot of questions about God.

In college at the Citadel, The Military College of South Carolina, I joined Valor, Cru’s ministry for cadets and veterans on college campuses. The ministry leaders offered help when I had questions.

I learned more about Jesus at a retreat at Lake Wylie in North Carolina.

During the retreat, I talked with Keith, a leader in Cru’s military ministry. The conversation bounced back and forth between my questions and his answers.

I asked, “How can I know if I am forgiven and have eternal life?”

I thought that Christians never sinned.

Keith said, “By believing that you are a sinner and that Christ died for your sins, and then accepting Him as your Savior.”

I thought that Christians never sinned.

I also thought my own sin was keeping me from forgiveness. But Keith explained that even Christians do sinful things. But Jesus has the power to change our lives.

After that, I accepted that I was a sinner and that Christ died on the cross for my sins. I knew I was forgiven.

As an expression of believing in Jesus, I was baptized in Lake Wylie that weekend. Being immersed in the water and coming back up again is a picture of Jesus’ death, burial and resurrection.

Now, when I sin — that is, when I do something I know is wrong — I realize I need to ask God to help me because I can’t do it on my own.

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