My Story: How My Life Changed

The Day I Planned to Die

Jeff Cox with Rich Atkinson

I decided I would kill myself by driving my car into a big power pole in front of my high school.

I felt alone. I felt like no one really cared about me. I thought no one would ever accept me for who I was. I was so depressed that I decided suicide was my best option.

As I drove to the place where I would end it all, I heard a voice in my head. The voice told me not to end my life. I didn’t know who or what the voice was, but it was powerful. I decided not to commit suicide.

A couple days later, I found out what had stopped me.

A girl invited me to an event about love, dating and relationships. I liked her and thought she was a nice person, so I decided to go.

What started as a fun event turned into something that would change my life. The event’s main theme was unconditional love. I was intrigued and wondered how I could experience that kind of love.

The guest speaker shared that God was offering His unconditional love and wanted a personal relationship with each of us. The speaker explained that people are separated from God because of what they do wrong. But there was good news: Jesus has paid the price for our wrongdoings, so we can have a relationship with God and experience His unconditional love. I learned that we just have to accept His forgiveness and invite Him into our lives.

I realized that unconditional love was what I was really looking for. That night I prayed a simple prayer: “God be in my life, forgive me of my sins and help me to have this life that you promised.”

I know that it was God who saved my life that day I had planned to end it. Now, instead of a desire to die, I have a reason to live. I went from despair to hope, and you can too.

Would you like to begin a personal relationship with Jesus like I did?

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Are you struggling with suicidal thoughts? Call the confidential, 24/7 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-TALK).

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