I was beginning my junior year at Grandview University in Des Moines, Iowa. I felt completely lost in life. I was struggling with the pharmacy program and not happy.
I felt unloved, like nobody cared.
At the beginning of fall semester, a Keynote band called Blue Sky Nine was playing a concert at my school. I really wanted to talk to Holly, the lead singer.
It has always been my dream to be in a band and sing – like that, like her. I just wanted to talk to her personally about God. I thought she would understand me in a way.
After the concert, I told Holly about my struggles. Holly explained to me what it means to have a relationship with Jesus – how He died for my sins and knows every little hair on my head and that He really cares about me.
I felt love when she said that, and I felt like crying. I thought, Wow, He put a lot of effort into making me.
Holly was able to boost my confidence that God does love me and that I am not alone in my struggles. But I still didn't understand what it was to have a relationship with God.
I got involved in a Bible study through Campus Crusade for Christ with kids my own age who I could relate to. They also told me that I could have a relationship with God, but I still didn't know what it meant.
A few months later at the end of the semester, I went to a Campus Crusade winter conference. At the conference, I felt, Wow, these are a bunch of Holly's – a lot of people who are really in love with Jesus Christ.
During worship one night, while everyone else was singing, I got down on my knees and prayed to God. "Jesus, I want to have a relationship with You, and I want to live for You alone. Take my life and lead it in the right direction."
After the worship service, I unexpectedly ran into Holly, the lead singer from the band I heard months earlier, in the hotel elevator. I was able to tell her that I had just accepted Jesus and that it was all thanks to her.
Now I talk with God and tell Him how I am feeling and about the struggles I am going through, all the time. I really feel like He is present with me in anything I do.
Dania immigrated to the United States 7 years ago from Russia. She is currently majoring in biology and hopes to become a doctor. Dania has auditioned for a Keynote summer project and hopes to spend this summer singing about her relationship with Jesus.
If you are reading this and for some reason you hate God, and you feel alone, know that He is constantly loving you. He will turn the situation around. Therefore, choose God as He chooses you.
It could be said that I grew up in the church, however, my heart was not entirely in it.
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