“Can I trust you God?” I find myself asking this question everyday. I may not be aware of the exact wording, but this question follows the big decisions and challenges of life, and rightly it should. No matter how large or small my struggles are it’s important that I keep my fretting eyes on Jesus. But then, a second question slithers into my soul, “What do I need to do?” I now begin to think about myself, my weaknesses, my strengths, my experiences, my past, my wounds, the unknown of the future, my desires. It opens the door to pride, insecurity, and anxiety. It’s devastating.
How about you? Through the trials of life do you find yourself meditating on who God is and how He is with you through your difficulties? Is your mind and heart a whirl of analysis, thinking, feeling, processing, debating, doubting? There is hope.
What I’ve learned, forgotten, and learned again, and again, is to focus on who God is: God’s wrath was poured out on Jesus, so He is never angry with me. God is intimate and tender, so He’s always with me no matter how difficult things get. God is a generous Father, so He will always provide what I need, though I may greedily want more than my daily bread. God sees me as this perfect Son, so I need not fear how others view or reject me. God is big, really big, so everything and everyone is small compared to the King of all creation.
How do your problems compare to the attributes, character, and love of God? Soak in and apply the wisdom and hope of Philippians 4:4-7, ”Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
This isn’t a quick fix recipe. It will take time. As you grow to know God, as He really is; your faith, humility, hope, and love will grow as well.
Going, giving, doing, saying… all of that can add up to a way of being. Or it can feel like our relationship with God is dependent on being good at those things. But 1John 5:11-13 tells another story.
Does God really speak to us today in an intelligible voice? During my first ten days after moving to college, my roommate and I conceived a brilliant plan that involved us getting drunk every night. On the tenth night of this escapade, I went up to my room and sat on my bed.
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